i feel society is taking a weird twist on what it means to be an adult. parents are getting younger again... people are growing up faster... youths have more responsibilities... the world is just in a crazy place right now... like take me for example... {i'm probably the poster child for growing up too fast... lqtm} but, from working two jobs... living all alone down here... very little family support... life can get sad and depressing... thats why i try to live each day to the fullest...
it saddens me when i see a small girl pregnant... and people just turn their noses up at her... no one wants to reach out and offer her support... heck i know how that feels and i've never been pregnant... try riding the BX14 with a toddler and an infant at 12 and see how people treat you... its terrible. we as society are doing this... we place an emphasis on sexual liberations and how money is everything... if all you tell a child is "sex sells" don't be mad about the outcome.
and with increasingly younger parent we now have this shift of parent wanting to relive their now missed childhood at 35-40 when then makes it hard for every party involved. take me for example.. my mom wanted to live her life that meant no teenage years for me... instead living the normal 13-18 lifestyle i was cooking dinner for a small family as if i had 4 kids of my own... that's #nobueno.... what sometimes happens in these situations is then one of the other children then themselves becomes pregnant and starts the cycle all over.... or worse the oldest child resent her family and leaves to want nothing to do with them... both are unfortunate scenarios...
i never knocked karrine steffans for the path she took in life... i actually could relate to her... we can't get mad at the cards life dealt to her... cause life has dealt me those very same cards... the only difference between the two of us... i just learned how to plan my hand better... and even tho she may feel she sexually liberated.. she isn't... she just continues to live the facade to make her feel her life is whole and complete...
whenever you see me deep in thought, i'm usually think how am i going to accomplish this... or how am i going to pay that... i tend to have alot on my plate but, i'm just good at masking it to u the public... even my closest friends rarely see me break a sweat... but, whats heavy on the mind always leads to extra pounds on the heart...
you always think... why was life played out this way for me and not everyone else too... why me??? you grow to understand that this rainy season makes you a stronger far better person but, sometime.... its depressing...
as i enter this new phase of my life... i'm going to help ease some of these pounds off both my mind and heart... but, i fear it may be here a few more years... i guess i can only hope to grow into a better person..
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